By Robert Dean
The bill collectors never stop calling. I recognize their numbers.
My children ask me if I’ve got a job yet faster than they say hello.
Every day, I throw applications for employment into a volcano, and what sputters out floods my inbox with, “We’re sorry, but we’ve decided to move on with other candidates.”
A hammer in my heart pounds against my insides, daring my soul to break away from the skeleton of worry.
I’ve stolen plenty from the self-check-out. I’m no thief, but I’m used to decimal points, not commas. My bank account is a graveyard of missed connections, rejection emails, and those bill collectors shaking their cups for my quarters.
I’ve dreamed about what homelessness would feel like if I could handle the long nights of cold wind if it would break my kids’ hearts if I drifted off into the shadows.
Ghosting isn’t just for dating; it also happens when you’re broke. As the Amazon drivers traverse my neighborhood, dropping boxes with a pep in their step because Bezos’ foot is on their neck, I wonder what I did to get ignored by them, too.
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